My Bipolar Life


what are the key traits that will help you identify some who has a brain disorder.

1 mania

2 depression

3 unable to feel satisfied

4 unable to listen to reason

5 talking out loud to what seems as no one

6 frightened easily

7 bed wetting past age 6

8 no awareness of hygiene (smell like urine or poop)

9 extreme weight fluxes

10 unable to show or feel strong moral behavior or physical restraint

1 Mania – – Mania, the presence of which is a criterion for certain psychiatric diagnoses, is a state of abnormally elevated or irritable mood, arousal, and/or energy levels.[1] In a sense, it is theopposite of depression. The word derives from the Greek “μανία” (mania), “madness, frenzy”[2] and that from the verb”μαίνομαι” (mainomai), “to be mad, to rage, to be furious”.[3]

In addition to mood disorders, individuals may exhibit manic behavior as a result of drug intoxication (notablystimulants such as cocaine or methamphetamine), medication side effects (notably steroids), or malignancy. However, mania is most often associated with bipolar disorder, where episodes of mania may alternate with episodes of majordepression. Gelder, Mayou and Geddes (2005) suggests that it is vital that mania is predicted in the early stages because the patient becomes reluctant to comply to the treatment. The criteria for bipolar do not include depressive episodes and the presence of mania in the absence of depressive episodes is sufficient for a diagnosis. Regardless, even those whonever experience depression experience cyclical changes in mood. These cycles are often affected by changes in sleepcycle (too much or too little), diurnal rhythms and environmental stressors.

Mania varies in intensity, from mild mania (known as hypomania) to full-blown mania with psychotic features including hallucinations, delusion of grandeur, suspiciousness, catatonic behavior, aggression, and a preoccupationwith thought and schemes that may lead to self neglect.[4] . Altman Self-Rating Mania Scale [5] and Young ManiaRating Scale [6] can be used to measure severity of manic episode. The frequency of manic episodes varies, but onaverage, manic episodes occur every 2-4 years. Accelerated mood cycles on the other hand can occur annually or evenmore frequently, depending on the case. [7] Naturally, since mania and hypomania have also been associated withcreativity and artistic talent,[8] it is not always the case that the clearly manic bipolar person will need or want medical assistance; such people will often either retain sufficient amount of control to function normally or be unaware that they have “gone manic” severely enough to be committed or to commit themselves (‘commitment’ is a euphemism for admission to a psychiatric facility). Manic individuals can often be mistaken for being on drugs or other mind-altering substances.

When I was a child my mother would have her hands full with me and her anger was triggered by my inability to keep myself clean and not cause trouble. she never showed me how to do anything like brush my teeth, wipe my butt, or keep my room clean. when I would get punished for these things it would perplex me because at that age, 3 to 5 yrs old, I had no reference of guilt for being bad or good. I never felt like I did anything to deserve the punishment nor did I ever understand her problems dealing with me. Later, after I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and read everything I could find about the subject I reflected back to those early days and realized that she was bipolar as well.

A parent-of-origin effect was suggested by observations that transmitting mothers are more common than transmitting fathers and have a higher proportion of affected relatives. Thus, families with transmitting mothers and families with transmitting fathers show different susceptibility to BPAD.

Having a parent and a child both dealing with this brain disorder trying to co-habitate was very challenging to say the least. If my mother was properly diagnosed and subsequently I was screened for the disorder based on the evidence that children can inherit this trait, then I might have been able to get along with my family, unfortunately this was not the case. My mother never talked to anyone in the mental health field nor was it ever suggested by my father that she might need to be assessed so, we had to live with our brain disorders, a so called perfect storm.

I was born bipolar in 1961. I was not diagnosed bipolar until 2004. I have not spoken of heard from anyone in my family since 2002. I now have a good Doctor and good medical insurance, I am attempting to help locate and educate people and friends and family of people who are living with this devastating brain disorder and are oblivious to it.

2 Depression – Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person’s thoughts, behavior, feelings and physical well-being.[1] It may include feelings of sadness, anxiety, emptiness, hopelessness, worthlessness, guilt, irritability, or restlessness. Depressed people may lose interest in activities that once were pleasurable, experience difficulty concentrating, remembering details, or making decisions, and may contemplate or attempt suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, loss of energy, or aches, pains or digestive problems that are resistant to treatment may be present.

Looking back I can determine every episode of a depressive state going all the way back to about 3 to 4 years old and I can remember how difficult it was for my brothers, sisters and my parents to deal with me. By the time I was 8 my mood swings were so severe that I became the “demon child” to my family. I feel that if parents can find out early in achild’s life that they may be experiencing symptoms of mania or depression the child can be treated and the family as a whole would begin a healing and understanding phase that will lead to a more normal loving relationship.

3 Unable to feel satisfied – In instances of bipolar disorder, manic subjects can become hyper social, as well as hypersexual.This is credited to an increase in dopamine, because mania can be reduced by dopamine-blocking antipsychotics. This information tells me that if I were treated early that my social behavior and my ability to make and keep friends would have created a positive lifestyle, not the negative, lonely one that I endure to this day. It’s difficult to wake up one day at the age of 49 and realize that when I die I will have to be cremated because my son is the only person in this world that would attend a funeral for me because he honestly loves me and considers me his Dad. andwhen i go I hope he can take my ashes out to sea and let them go. I would think that every parent would want their childto be liked by his peers and would, with knowledge and understanding, be able to guide a child with this type of brain disorder to a full and happy life.


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